week fourteen.

If i could go back in time, I would change the fact that i shut my step-dad out of my life because i took my moms side on things. I would talk to him as much as i could, acknowledge him whenever he came to get my brother and sister. I would spend as much time with him as possibly. I would actually do anything i possibly could just to see him one last time. That would seriously be the best thing ever. Just seeing him in my dreams helps a little. But it would be really nice if i had a good relationship with him before he passed away. I wouldnt take him for granted and i wouldnt not talk to him just because of my mom. I would love to hug him one more time. So the decision of me shutting him out of my life, the day i decided to, i would think it through and decide not to shut him out of my life. Because he was so important to me, i made a very bad decision in shutting him out.